you know what???...

Im not going to sit here and try to get some form of woe as me vote. Straight up and down, heres just the low down on my alter ego Christy P. Christy Purgington is someone that comes from many different fucked up places in my life. Since I was a kid. I was a professional model when I was 16 years old. Modeled for a famous agency in which names I will not use for chance that I may get sued or just some stupid backlash from whoever. I was a model. And for many years I had a good head on my shoulders. Until I lost myself in the shallow truth which is in fact modeling and HOLLYWOOD! I was raised to never think I'm better than anyone and to NEVER JUDGE people right off the bat(WHO R U TO THINK U R BETTER)! U arent and for thinking something like that makes u lame and stupid. Confidence is awesome! To an extent. Modeling, your judged for everything u are. EVERYTHING!!!!!! Even if u already have a contract. You are subject to an annual look over by your agents. Personality, how fat, if your eating right, making sure your abs and ass are perfect. I'm saying, EVERYTHING! It's like that dog movie Best In Show with Parker Posie! LOVE HER!!!! Anyways, I was raised by hippies from SF. After a couple years of working these runways. I really lost who I was as a person. My goal in life growing up? And this isn't some bullshit I'm spitting at you either. I really just wanted to help make this shitty world a better place(ask my mom, the starving kids in Africa in the 80's, homeless people and every damn stray animal), make people laugh, perform on stages, DANCE, travel all over and meet different people(good and bad). I lost myself for many years. The problem? I didn't like myself. I was told I was fat(BASICALLY)! At 6'2 165 pounds. Toned, young and ripped. Runway models have it harder I think than any other model out there. I had a drug problem and 2 eating disorders. By the time I was 25 I was so bad I was having seizures. Which to this day I still get if I don't eat right or if I drink to much, can trigger them. EVEN BLINKY LIGHTS!!! I hated myself and everything I stood for at that point in my life. Why? Cause I knew it was fake. I was fake... I knew all who said were my friends were full of shit. My so called "friends" were shoveling a retarded amount of coke and other drugs in my face. I come to find my ex was using me and most of my friends were too. Guess what my lame ass did... I tried to kill myself. I was 155 pounds at that point. I od'd on EVERYTHING I HAD. Which was a LOT! I lost everything after that... I was a fool and weak willed. Was I blessed? YES! Fuck! How many people can say they've walked Valentino!!!!!!! Not fucking many people! So, long story short short... Christy Turlington IS and will forever be my goddess. I will forever be getting over these eating disorders, and I will never forget how vulnerable I was to want to take my own life. I have nothing to hide, nor am I uncomfortable with telling who I am or about my life. I hope this helps with letting you know 1% of who I am as a person. Just be real with yourselves and those who tell you I love you. Don't be a fucking poser. BE REAL!!! In every sense of those words. BE REAL... xoxo

That was a real real real short version. If u want to know more? I'm an open book. Let's talk!

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